there is this guy , that ive always liked .
but he always has a gf
he once said he liked me
but that went nowhere .
im too much of a punk to let him now how i feel about him still
so now he is single .
and i dont know something can happen with me and him?
we are both looking for the same things
and both have this burning desire to love and be loved
but he just dont know how i feel about him
he has the ability to make me feel like a little girl with simple IM's
think about in person ?
he might think im creepy or weird how my feeling could grow for a person from just speaking to them . but then again he is a big creep himself
he is a genuine good guy that never seems to get girls to appreciate it
i can be that one .
me and guys are a weird issue .
ive never really had a relationship with a guy before .
never felt much .
its not that i dont want too
but i cant bring myself too ?
its weird .
i want something with him ive always had
pink ego box by muse explains my feelings lol.
But. . . .
i attempted to close a chapter in my life that i really couldnt .
i didnt like the way things ended
its safe we know each other
we have been threw a lot
but the love is still there
well hopefully
my first love .
only person ive ever fell hard for
so hard i didnt know how to function
i hurt her in ways i never thought i would ever do
she cared about me with every feeling she had
and i let her down
i tend to do that a lot with people that care the most
her images of me have changed drastically .
but i want to restore them .
i want to feel her again
i want everything back
even though people preach leave that girl alone
i cant , because the way things ended keeps me thinking
i tried letting her go , hating her , erase her from my memory
but obviously i couldnt
im ready to prove myself .
and show how much love i have
but i might be too late . . .
sooo should i re-open a lost chapter of my past or try and risk something new ?
both of them might not even want anything with me
when i want someone this badly i always seem to be the one with the feelings , the other is just totally oblivious .
hmmm have to let this one rock for a bit.
