so at times i just stare myself in the mirror and reflect.

on all the things ive been threw , well more so overcame. i hate when these same childhood insecruties come back and haunt me , sometimes the hurt makes me think better in judgement and its something im pretty much use too. misery is my company well at least use to be.

sometimes it makes a suprise visit and i dont like it much, i try and close the door in its face but its way to strong for me to fight at times. so it stays for a while then goes back to where ever it came from.

my freinds are what really keep me up from not falling completey under ever again.

the same issues just repeat themselves.

over

and over

and

over

and over again.

& i have to stop and ask myself is it me ? am i good enough? will i ever be good enough?

will anyone ever see my greatness? or am i just fooling myself.

ive got sooo much stuck inside me that i want to let out.