its a kaleidoscope of feelings
every time they want to re-open a lost chapter , i remind myself why they were there in the first place why these feelings i had for them where drowned with my common sense.
they asked me "take one for the team"
the only thing that stops me and what always has is the finding of love not just an artificial moment of happiness , i want something long lasting , worth while something i cant get rid the taste of. & just this said alone is what stops me in my path of not giving a fuck & promiscuity .Those couple of minutes of satisfaction's just isn't enough for me i want it all i want everything call me greedy.
i don't like being the other , i want to be IT .
but my love for the game is just creeping right back into play & Ive grown this cold-heartedness even towards the one's that claim to love me.
so i have this battling issue.