its dealing with selfish , inconsiderate , conniving, manipulative jerks is what makes you unable to throw yourself out there head-first.
i didnt need to fully experience this to know it burns i just needed to wet my lips to know its not what im looking for.
you will not have my morals at my knees because your ultimately not that awesome. i was never the type to ignore my morals just for a petty few minutes of pleasure, because at the end of the day im the one washing away my disappointment of letting you inside of me, while you gloat .I continually find myself webbed up in the same wicked situation & then i begin to question myself should i just subdue to whats in front of me or is the issue something deep within in me that i need to find & figure out? . it's just a thought a mere little bug that crawls about inside of my mind. i tend to weed out all the i want the money , car's , clothes & hoes types ; not the i have a mind and i think & talk i want more to life and sex is an issue but not everything & the like me not only because i have a fat ass and a pretty smile but because they know there is more to me than just the physical . . . but heyy thats all over-ratted right? or am i just a bit too naive to think i want something more out of a guy or girl than what we can do in a bed or floor or couch. maybe im too old-fashioned or maybe im just a bit too realistic or i just live in my fantasies of just wanting another human being that feels the same way about me. many thoughts but no action , literally.
