& so know that im back to the common world .
i have much to say
people just really kill me .
this is the main reason why i act the way i do .
i guess you shouldn't just categorize everyone just because of one bad mishap with one "bad" person but it seems to me that all my "friends" from the exclusion of two , have proved me right
people do come and go I've learned that the hard way that's why i try and not get attached
I'm not close with my family
so i look onto friends to what im lacking in my family life.
friends usually are family to me and mean a lot
but lately i can see that the same cant be said about me if you would ask them ?
the asshole is back in the picture . and whats something again with me ?
and i havent even gotten past the bff issue
he was there for me as he always is . and i caught myself catching feeling
i had butterflies in my stomach when i would see him and he always makes me
smile and makes me happy and would walk 40 blocks to buy me some jamba juice .
and i guess since he doesnt have as much time as he did before to be with me
my feeling are starting to fade .
i apologized for being such an attention whore but i cant help it
i dont know what to do with him ? or about him ?
if you know me you know my big problem i have when it comes with guys
and i care about him . i dont want to play games but then i dont want to just
push aside my feelings blah.
there was this one guy i wouldve thrown all this shit out the window for and try but he has a gf .
not saying that i wouldnt want to try with my bff
i guess my feeling for him was just a passing crush
