so my grandmother finally left .
& its soo fucking lonely in my house .
im thinking about throwing a little get together in my house
cool kids , drinks & Food , Music
and have someone sleep over i be so lonely =/
my cousin still has a half a bottle of grey goose sitting in my room
im contemplating should i drink it or not ?
the bff issue is done and over with
we are now friends just friends
because i saw that we wouldn't work out
he works or whatever
and i understand that but it seems to me that his excuse for never calling me or seeing me is
im too "busy"
but he wasn't busy enough to go chill with someone else or party
and it bothers me because
if he felt as strongly towards me as he claims
he would make an effort
which he obviously didnt .
im not trying to bash him in anyway
and i understand he works
im content with little things
a simple call
would be just fine
i just wanted him to put some effort into "us"
im not asking him to move mountains and be usher now
then he wants to feel some type of way when i tell him i dont like him as much as i did
i got a clue
his feeling werent as genuine as i thought or as he made it seem
and it sucks because i wanted to really try this out
and be with him .
but thats not going to happen .
so its whatever
i cant help but act a bit sour towards him
and be a bit stank
once i get over my feelings towards him
is as soon as we could get this "friendship"
back to normal .
it really sucks having no sound .
theres nothing to do .
and im itching to listen to much =[
so now asshole wants me to be his boo
but i cant help but feel as if he's tainted in some type of way .
i just need to try shit out with him
i havent really been around him that much
we just talk a lot .
hmmmm.
i know myself and know that most likely
nothing is going to happen between me and him
never.
i need some hot lesbian sex ;D
