looking back unto my old blog spots and old diary entries i have saved on my computer.
i looked and say how much i told people and how much i shared and how much ive grown from the time i started this whole transition in my life .
from the learning that i could actually " fall in love " to all the the crushes that ran away from me as fast as i could detect it .
& all the friends that have moved on .
last night when i was hanging with akin he asked me " how is bre doing ?"
and my answer was i have no clue she doesnt talk to me anymore
nor does shanise really
he was like "thats crazy every two months you have a new pair of friends"
and its crazy because its soo true
why cant i find some dependable friends that could maintain.
not even a friendship that sparked from birth has lasted .
so my question is; is it me ?
am i the main cause of this whole friendship imbalance , or is that they just cant handle me
well not really " handle" me to say but i guess understand me ? .
friendships fade people change and move on .
or i guess im just thinking way too hard on this subject which is something that ive been doing lately thinking way too hard on things .
im in a real talkative mood today as you can see , but everyone is either
busy ,
or doing better things than to sit and talk to me .
This is where the whole significant other situation pops up
me and troy were speaking about that today .
im ready to settle down and have a real meaningful relationship
whoreing around is really not for me at this point in time .
i miss it , dearly.
and its crazy how me and my two best friends
just happen to be all ridiculously single we are all three
cute
pretty
outgoing
well spoken
funny
well dressed girls but for some reason were alone.
its mind boggling on why we are still single .
they always say when you least expect it that someone comes to you .
but i dont want to hear that bullshit
i want some fucking results now
