i dont know if you guys do this?
im an extremely observant person
when im on the train i tend to just stare around at everyone around me
and just wonder where there going ? who they are ? and how there life might be like
making simple assumptions by how they look?
what there wearing ?.
and their facial expressions
and wonder if they can try to make me out
and make inferences about my life and my persona
im on the train this morning and my mind is just buggin
im not able to focus on my book because my mind is un able to keep still
ADD.
there are people sleep . drooling and zoned out.
i take a seat to a guy holding an columbia water bottle
he looks, i look we smile and i take out my book.
79st.
this cute Spaniard looking girl comes on with this
Mexican fiesta shirt and a big star gazer flower in her nice long dirty blondish hair
she looks around nervous catches me starring and just smiles
so do i
i can tell she is a tourist at how scared she was when the train made this loud noise
and saw how calm everyone was .
so she calmed down, and continued typing away on her blackberry
i mess with my hair and notice i feel someone starring at me
i look in front of me to a woman
with her feet and nails freshly manicured .
chanel shades resting on her nice brunette bob .
she has a big longchamp Le Pliage nylon tote bag on the train floor infront of her
now you know she has money .
nicely fitted black dress pants with a matching white button up
we have a starring contest for a minute
dont you hate it when someone is looking at you and you look at them so they can stop looking
but they keep looking anyways !.
96st
a stop before my stop .
a pool of people on their way to work and columbia kids come on.
all of them with there messenger bags filled with books
there graphic tees
and nicely fitted levis
over sized pullover hoodies
and fred perry shoes .
this Indian girl comes in
has a really pretty face she kind of favors M.I.A
but much more softer and prettier .
she looks like she can be a model
but then i take a good look at her
her body seems un proportioned
she looks like she had or has an eating disorder
if you ever seen anyone that has suffered or is suffering from one
you see what kind of body im talking about
she has little bruises and cuts all over her arms
someone is a bit rough?
she glares at the lady who slightly bumped her trying to get the seat next to me
she smells like coffee , i can tell she works over a desk.
103st.
i fight my way threw the crowd .
im on my block i see the kids on the corner one calls my attention
happens to be my 16 thug life wanna be gangstur cousin
i ask
why you not in school?
he responds im on my way .
some small talk
then i walk towards my building
i see all these kids ranging from 11-18
just walking like its not 8:30 in the morning ? on a Tuesday !
chilling on the corner of the 99 cent store
just huggin the block.
and i just pity them
i was kind of the same
i took high school as a joke
& i payed for it
and now im here with my mind rotting & decaying
dying to learn something
fuck im excited for college i need some type of challenge
am i being too much of a dork for wanting to learn ?
i just want some education in my life
for once .
