no matter how much i try no matter wtf happens
i always just tend to stray away from the people that care the most about me
i lost him
as a friend
and im hurt
i cried harder then i thought i would.
over some nigga
some bum ass nigga that dont mean nothing to me
over some bullshit
i didnt even cum !
i think thats what aggravated me the most honestly
so i lost the guy that cared about me the most
and actually gives a fuck about me & my future
we have been threw a lot and he has been there for me
when NO ONE and i stress the no one was there.
ive just slept all day
not wanting to do much with myself
let me wallow let me cry and bitch
and fucking curse everyone out
im to blame for all this and i know it
ive owned up to it.
either way this wouldve happened and only mostly because
i dont love him the way he loves me
i have ridiculous amounts of love for him
& he is in love with me
that always baffles me how can someone you know like be in love with me?
not to throw a whole self pity parade. . . but i just never understand how and why?
or maybe thats my problem i shouldnt be asking those question
and just accept the feeling .
i feel like i have to throw up
im chilliing this week
not to be bothered by most
just immediate close people
on a brighter note,
Thursday is taco night at my house
i know me and my freinds are some gay fat asses
but tacos are most def. poppin so were all going to make some
and watch a movie still havent decided which one though
and Saturday is the day to drink my sorrows away
im going to be in a corner with my cup
keeping my pussy to myself.
everyone and anyone is invited
liquor, music, and bitches .
its the last time i can get od wasted before my mom comes back
so i guess you can call it a party?
ive also decided well stole this from faye btw i love you !
to dress up as a fafi character for Halloween havent found the exact one yet
does anyone know where i can find stripped thigh highs and arm warmers?
its so cold. =/
