these past couple of days have been chaotic.
we talk and talk and talk
but realize shit
and at the end of the day
nothing is ever going to be the same
we are all going to drift apart in our separate directions
and all that is left is faint memories
i can feel it .
i dont want time apart
fuck time apart
work through this together!
you cant do everything on your own.
the tension is going to unbearable
& hopefully you snap out this mess.
my bday dinner is going to be something else
and i hope it doesnt turn out to be a disaster because thats the last thing i need
my mom comes tomorrow & im scared as shit
i dont know what to expect
or what im going to hear.
the evidence thats left on my body needs to clear
i want to just wash away my sins
and like shed out of my skin
and grow into a new layer
like a snake would.
one that is pure with less bruises and scars
who wouldve ever thought
i dont act like i dont care about you
you treat me like you dont care about me
you parade about your feelings to everyone but me
& your actions speak much louder than your words do
im sick of hearing it from someone Else's mouth
this is about you and me
you would think she was there instead of me
at one point in time
your whole not being my type
wasnt an issue
i liked you
i really did
but your niggerish acts blinded me
& now i dont think i can ever see straight past that.
im dreadin our conversation
because you dont talk !
i dont want to make anything bigger than what it is
im just confused and need some structure
i feel at home when im with him
he makes me feel safe
i love hearing his heartbeat.
fuck im gay lol.
so on my bday im going to be wearing this stupid le sac dress from AA anyone think they can help me find a poppin way to wear it , this shit is so damn trickyy. =/
